As usual, I don’t have ten things… that would mean getting into very small things and then I’d have way more than ten.
What I’ll do is, I’ll focus on the big ones.
1) I’m surviving Kindergarten
Not for me, clearly. I’m surviving as a mom.
I distinctly remember thinking, “Hey, I’m done with school. Now it’s (my boy) Massimo’s turn.”
How naïve of me.
Turns out, there’s TONS I have to do in terms of working with him, helping him, and make sure I’m on the same page his (fantastic) teacher is so we’re all working together. And I’m okay with that. I love school, always have and always will.
What stresses me out is, well, everything else. Extra activities, monthly book orders, monthly causes the school champions that involves him, wearing a shirt of a certain color (which means, find a shirt, remember to give him the charity dollar that goes with it. I never have cash. Like, ever.) The orders, the money lunch through a website that’s not Vivi-friendly, are these pant dress-code ok? The Thanksgiving breakfast, Santa workshop, the trip to Santa’s farm or whatever that will be.
I know it sounds silly, but combine all of these little things, and yeah. I’m a bit out sometimes.
But I’m doing it. Thank God Massimo’s teacher has endless patience. Not just with the kids, but with parents (read: me) as well.
2) I’m managing working and writing.
Not brilliantly, to be honest. No matter how much I wish for extra hours in a day, there’s none of that. I’m stuck with 24 and have to make do with that.
The triad working-writing-blogging is a bit too much, especially when added to a family. And my family will not take second place, that’s for sure. I had to reassess my priorities.
It’s family, of course. Then working (if nothing else, because it takes me literally away from the house). Writing (which is what I am). Then blogging, which is what takes away most of the time, and honestly, that’s not okay. I’m making changes to it, and next year I’ll be able to cut some of the time I spend on it and give more to writing, making the balance right again.
3) I’m working, and loving it!
Self-explanatory. I’m subbing, and it’s perfect in so many ways. I have the freedom to choose my own hours and where I want to work, I can do it with MS because I can work a couple of days, take a breather, and work some more. I can fit the writing into it, and I have the same days off as Massimo has. And teaching, even if done on the surface in the way subs do, is so great. I missed school.
4) We bought a second car and what that means in terms of freedom.
My René is nothing but a beauty. I can go to work without worrying about taking my husband to work and Massimo to school. I can take Massimo to the playground at any given moment. If I forget to buy mink, I can go. Just like that. We (as in my husband and I) never had 2 cars, not in the 20 years we’ve been together. Honestly, we didn’t need to. In the UK, everything was walking distance. When we moved here, I didn’t work. Honestly, Now I see things would be a lot easier if I have a way of transportation when I had Massimo but you know the thing about old habits. They do die hard. Well, I’m so glad we killed that one because I love having that freedom of movement.
5) Found my space.
I guess it would be more precise to say I accepted some things I am, and things I’m not.
The biggest one: I’m not cut to be a stay-at-home mom. I have 5-year experience in it, and I can tell, I’m not good. Not that I’m bad at doing it. I’m actually great. I’m mentally not made for that. Having to swallow that one truth was hard because I so wanted to be.
But I need a job, one that takes me away from home. Not because home is not enough, but because A) it’s easy to get lost in it. There’s very little you love more than the people that make your center. It’s easy, enticing, losing yourself in that love. I did, and getting back on my own feet was long and hard. I need distance to focus on how to be me while I’m wearing different hats. And B) solitude is my dimension. Again, it’s too easy for me to get used to it, to need it. But virtue always stands in the middle, and I need something that takes me away from my beloved cave.
So, here’s what I got from 2019.
What are your 10 (or any number, really)?
Guns for Angels
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My sister was all the family I had. She was taken from me and now, someone wants me dead, too. Not sure why.
I’m sure I’m not going to give my life up, though. I’m not going to let them get away with my sister’s murder.
The new me will try, anyway.
You see, when she was alive I could live in brightness and peace. Now I have to accept the darkness within me. After all, isn’t life about balance? Ironically, the man who can teach me how to embrace the shadows is broken, hopeless, and angry. Mark is also the only one I trust to lead me through my heart’s night, and back into the light.
The one I trust to keep us alive.
A favor to a teammate: pick up two girls in trouble, take them to the Team’s safehouse. Should have been easy. It was not.
Then someone killed one of my team, one of my brothers. Now it’s personal.
They want me, too.
They want me, too. I can deal with that. But they want Ann. The only person who cut through me, who woke me, who grabbed my hand and guided me back into life one smile at the time.
I’ll be damned if I let them have anything.
Not. One. Damned. Thing.
From NY to sunny Miami, Ann and Mark run into a maze of lie, betrayal, and death, where love is the only, terrifying certainty. And when truth unravels, they will have to risk all to survive.
More About Viviana
Beach bum and country music addicted, Viviana lives in a small Floridian town with her husband and her son, her die-hard fans and personal cheer squad. She spends her days between typing on her beloved keyboard, playing in the pool with her boy, and eating whatever her husband puts on her plate (the guy is that good, and she really loves eating). Besides beaching, she enjoys long walks, horse-riding, hiking, and pretty much whatever she can do outside with her family.